Time Is Going Way Too Fast

The last couple weeks I have been looking back on my life and the use of my time I've spent doing things. Another week went by, another weekend is going to be stored in the memory bank if anything is worth storing. This is what leads me to my topic.

The past is a collection of memories and that's it. Those memories make us as individuals and part of a society. Everything you learned in school, all the good and bad times and all your experiences are merely just memories. Its up to us how we use these memories for better or for worse. We can either learn from our bad "memories" and make better decisions for future unknown events, or we can take the chance and do the same action and hope there will not be the same consequence. We as humans are gifted to make our own decisions. The only thing against us is time, and that time is limited for us to change.

An average human lives 65-75 years world wide and you can argue that we can live more and I promise I won't argue back. I'm 27, I've lived about 42% of my life already, if I were to live a full life without cancer, a freak accident, or some other intervention causing early death. I, and we, don't know how long our brain will continue to send our body signals that we are alive and death can happen any moment. Some believe there is a heaven and a hell or some sort of "after life" and others believe its lights out when we die.

I hope there is an after life because life is just too good to leave behind. I hope to see the people of my past again in some magical kingdom of God or whatever. Although, I think this belief can sometimes be a bad thing. We take for granted people we love and the time we have because we "hope" with a sense of confirmation that we will have a second chance either here on earth or in the "after life."

This poses the other question of "what if there isn't an afterlife?" This is the belief I try to live my life by. It helps me to create better bonds with people, it helps me make better choices because knowing I don't have a second chance, makes my first chance more crucial to me. This helps to create more memories and a better past in turn making me a better person. Thinking this way reminds me my time is limited.

I was at dinner with my girlfriend last night and we started talking about time and how fast its going. We even discussed how fast the time was from when we left my apartment and sat down at the restaurant. We both had this helpless feeling that we can't stop time as it just bull dozes through. We have had a rough past relationship wise, and at that moment, I never felt more connected to a human being. I re-fell in love with her. I wanted to hold her close and freeze that moment but knowing I can't. I decided last night that I need to stop procastinating on any thing worth of value to me, keep them close and not waste time.

What good is a life full of bad memories or few good ones? A forty year old (figuratively speaking) dying of cancer can probably be the most wise person on this planet. Knowing that they have "x" time here on earth, they can learn to maximize their time and create as much good memories while they are still capable. That person will evaluate every decision, say "I love you" more to the people they care about. That person will do the things they have procrastinated their whole life and fully remember it. The people in this situation that accomplish this, we, as unknown lifespans, need to model this idea. I'd rather be the person dying of cancer creating more then a full life of memories in a matter of months, then an 85 year old who has had his whole life and is alone or bitter because of the actions in his past.

We need to appreciate our time here and make every decision carefully because you don't know how your memories will record. After all, we are all going to die. Nothing is going to stop it. It doens't matter how old we are when we die because the past is going to be like a dream when we face our death bed. Do we want that dream to be good or bad?

STARTING RESEARCH ON MY PHOTO-GRAPHIC NOVEL

That's right, a photo-graphic novel! How the hell can I do this? Simple explanation, seemingly impossible to do.

I'm going to portray a story through the use of photography and graphic mediums. That's probably the only part I have covered at the moment (besides my developing story) and is the only thing not changing. Production for my novel seems to be the only part I naturally know how to accomplish. The "writing" part, that's another story! No pun intended.

I hate writing, hence the use of images to portray my story to lighten up my load, but what good is a graphic novel without effective dialogue and background premise? I think I may have given myself a project to big to handle, but not to big to accomplish. I have a lot of work to do to hone my skills as a writer, translate whats in my head and have effective dialogue with epic photographs as a backdrop.

I started my research to give some backbone to my story and fill my head with ideas to jump start my comic world coming together.

I went to Borders today and picked up this book called "A Brief History of Everything" by Ken Wilbur. If you are open to theories of human consciousness, I definitely recommend this book. This book came highly recommended by roommate to give me some ideas to contextualize my story as he felt my ideas are still rough. Not that I didn't agree, but that opened a flood of theories and ideas to incorporate in my story to give some back bone.

As my story becomes more developed, I'll be posting more details so you get a better understanding, and, hopefully, be intrigued and get excited for the finished project as much as I am.

I'll continue to keep posted on my research and new ideas.

The picture below is a prototype backdrop one of my scenes I have in mind.

SUPER CLOSE TO FINALIZING MY WEBSITE

Well the day is finally coming where I can get off my lazy ass and start taking more PHOTOS!!!

Not having my site up has been keeping me back by that factor alone. It makes no sense to had out cards with web addresses on them and have a lame "under construction" splash page or the page just flat out doesn't exist!

Time for a change my friend!

The Launch of CCL PHOTOGRAPHY

Well it has been a life long dream for me to finally indulge in my love for photography. I am still working on my website. Before I can finish the website, I need more portfolio work.

I have been offering bands to have me take free press shots for them. We'll see how that works out. So far I have lined up In Reverent Fear, Viacoma, and At The Helm. I have 2 more spots left, so if you know any band that needs press shots, let me know.

That's about it for the progress of CCL Photograpy.

P.S. You might be surprised by the upcoming work I'm doing, so keep checking back.